May 22nd... (evening)

I just got back from speaking to Vitto. He gave me a lot of interesting information and it looks like I might have a new job...

Myth and I tried to talk to Katey to explain why we did what we did, or I should say why I did what I did. It didn’t go over too well with her...

I’m still worked up about it and can’t sleep. I find my journal and begin to write...

April 15, 2009

I ran into the bar this morning, as I couldn’t wait to see Katey and congratulate her again on her promotion as Bar Manager. Ram was there and gave Katey a little toast. I could tell that she really likes him...

I was polite and cheerful to RM when he walked in the bar. He asked if we had seen Jess and both Katey and I told him not since the day before, when they were in last. RM mumbled something about no one would be stupid enough to try something and looked at Katey as if she had something to do with the situation. Katey and I had no idea what he was talking about...

Ram came back into the bar and the men shared looks with each other. RM turned to him and said that he had a bad feeling and wanted to know where Jess was. I listened as he tried calling her again and left a voice message for her. He then stomped out of the bar...

Atich walked in the bar and ordered beer instead of his mock-absinthe.

Ram finished his drink and turned to Katey and said, “My offer stands you know that” and I was disturbed that she knew what he meant and didn’t tell me...

Atich started to tell me the story as to why he switched from his absinthe to beer. He claimed that he saw a giant 10-foot squid in the harbour. He sure is a horse of a different colour...

Later that afternoon, when it was dead in the bar, I suggested to Katey that we should celebrate her new promotion. We started with one of the good bottles of wine and sat at one of the tables in the bar. Cloee and Louise soon dropped by. Cloee gave me the nickname, ‘Peanut’. I asked her why and she told me that it was from the night when she fell asleep at the bar and kept tossing peanuts at her head...

Xeno walked out from the kitchen. We invited him to celebrate with us. He ordered me to get the good stuff, the champagne from the back. Xeno popped the cork and poured glasses for all of us and made the toast, “To our new manager!”

We began to drink and got a little on the silly side. Atich came back to the bar and asked to speak to Katey about something. I remember getting a little mouthy and make my own toast to Sarah and the people she had hired. Xeno wasn’t too pleased with me and dragged me by the hair to the stage...

Xeno didn’t use the pole this time, but found a chair that reminded me of the one Damion and Jess had used...

I looked at Katey and pleaded with her to help me, but she was busy talking to Atich and Cloee. Xeno gagged me then left the stage to find out what had Katey so upset. The memories of the kidnapping started to take over me and I didn’t pay any attention to what was happening to the rest of the people in the bar...

I’m sure I started to hyperventilate and I didn’t remember Xeno coming back to the stage to ask me if I had learned my lesson. I think he untied me. I fell to the floor and passed out. I woke up when he dumped a bucket of ice water on me. Katey ran over to help me. It also didn’t help that I saw Santis enter the bar...

Katey let me hang out in the back for a bit. I came out in time to make some coffee for Hitomi and then saw Cally and called her boss by mistake, forgetting that Katey had the title now...

Later that morning, Katey and I went out and did a bit of shopping. Myth was at the bar when I got back. I totally forgot that I was wearing a wig and my hair was black when I returned. He asked right away when I changed my hair. It pleased me to know that he noticed. Myth asked me to turn around so he could look at my hair, so I thought. I caught him staring at me and teased him for doing it. He smiled and said, “What wrong with me looking?” I leaned in closer to him and he then told me that it didn’t matter what colour or style my hair was, he still thought that I was as delectable as a peach...

I asked him what his plans were for the day and he told me. I then looked around the bar and saw no one and took a chance at something I’ve never done before. I walked over to the stairs and climbed up onto the bar counter and leaned up against the pole. I saw his eyes widen with excitement and as I began to twirl around it...

I wasn’t very good to start and was a little on the nervous side. Myth joked with me and pulled out a bill from his pocket and waved it about asking if he needed to tip me. I was really enjoying the song being played on the radio and started to dance just for him. I was lost in the moment and must have had my back turned because I didn’t see Katey come in but I did hear her yell out, “Holy crap!!”

I was so embarrassed and begged her not to tell anyone what I was doing and she shocked me by saying, “I knew you had the genes in you”…

The bar began to fill again with familiar faces ~ Atich, Mina, Vitto, Kay and Tamar...

I walked into the bar after my lunch to see Cloee, Drake and Katey talking to a cop. Simone walked in as well and took a seat at the bar. She ordered a shot of vodka and I decided to join her. After we had a couple of shots, I told Simone that I had no interest in working upstairs with her, just in case she had any ideas for me in the future. She understood that not everyone was cut out for those positions and we toasted to the comment and downed another shot of vodka each. I’m really not sure how many we had in total together, but we had quite a few...

I don’t remember when Torrid walked in, but I do remember Simone making a comment to Torri about me getting her drunk. I caught a look from her and heard Simone tell her to calm down, that I was okay...

Simone joked with me and called me ‘cruel’ for getting her drunk. The two of us had a giggle over that comment, but Torri seemed to be a little upset by it. I took notice of her attitude and called her on it by asking if she had a problem with me. I didn’t see Myth enter the bar...

I continued to ask Torri what her problem was and why she kept giving me dirty looks. That vodka gave me some liquid courage. Torri claimed that she didn’t have any issues but said something about if I messed with her sugarpie she’d come at me like a spider monkey. I didn’t understand what she was talking about and Torri smirked, “Sorry, you’re blonde, should I talk slower?” I totally ignored the other customers, even Myth. I focused my attention on Torri and told her that it would help if I knew who ‘sugarpie’ was. She pointed at Simone. I remember rolling my eyes at her. Torri told me she was protective of Simone and didn’t like the fact I was getting her drunk. Simone tried to calm us down by saying that we should all have a drink...

I remember grabbing the bottle of vodka and waved it in Torri’s face before I poured another shot for Simone. Torri started to become rude to Katey, so I thought, and I suggest that Katey kick her out of Lulu’s.

Torri asked me for another drink and I poured her one and left it on the bar just out of her reach. Of course that didn’t please her and we exchanged more words with her ending the conversation by telling me that she would ‘stomp a mud hole in my ass’. Myth then asked what we were fighting about...

Simone paid me for the shots and pulled Torri out of the bar. Torri gave me one last glare and flipped her hair at me.

After they left, I knocked my head off the bar a couple of times. I had no idea why I even bothered to start a fight with her. I was so embarrassed and hated to see the looks of disappointment from both Katey and Myth. I stepped outside of the bar to get some air...

Myth followed me out to make sure I was okay. I told him how embarrassed I was for my attitude. Myth then got a weird text message, so I asked him what was wrong. He said he didn’t know and showed me the texts from Nat. She wanted to meet with him to talk. Myth asked for my opinion on if he should go see her or not. I told him that I didn’t trust her. He made his mind up himself and agreed to meet with her. I made a comment about how she always wants to see him alone...

He told me that he would call when he was finished and I dryly asked how long I should wait before I called him. I really didn’t want him to go running to her again. I also knew I was being rude and apologized. Myth then told me that I could give him a time limit for the conversation. I perked up a bit told him 10 minutes. Myth said that it would take him at least that long just to get there, so I gave him an extra minute...

We stood up and he laughed at me, gave me a kiss and told me, “Now I know why I love ya peach.” I looked at him and repeated the words in my head. I thought there was no way he had just said that to me, so I asked him to repeat himself. He just said that he would be right back and left me with a confussed* look on my face. I walked back into the bar…

I remember watching the clock and sent Myth a text about the time limit. It had already been more than 11 minutes and he told me that he needed more time with her. I wasn't too pleased. I then decided to get some air and went for a walk...

Katey and I met as I was walking and asked what was wrong. I told her where Myth was and how long he had been gone for. About an hour later I finally got a text back from him saying that he was finished talking to her. I didn’t reply to him. Katey wasn’t pleased that he had made me wait that long and suggested that I tell him my true feelings on the matter...

We walked back to the bar together. Myth was already there. He was polite when he asked me for a beer and I have him one. I didn’t catch Katey’s eye roll, but heard Myth ask her why she did that. I didn’t feel like being around them so I went downstairs to get more beer for the cooler...

Myth followed me downstairs. He asked what was wrong and I said to him, “Really, you have to ask.” He told me that Nat is just a friend that’s hurting at the moment. I knew that Nat was hurt as I had seen her in a wheelchair earlier that day. I made another comment to him about her mobility and that perhaps she could have just met him at the bar instead of making him go to her. I began to feel bad about my attitude and apologized for being so catty. Myth tried to make me feel better, I think, by telling me that Nat was happy for us and she only wants to be his friend. I made a snappy comment to Myth, and he replied with, “All I want is you peach”…

It made me feel a little better, but I still had my doubts. I reminded him of why I moved to Deadend, the secrets people kept from me, and then guessed that my wound hadn’t healed and the smallest thing makes me suspicious. I understood that they were friends...

Myth reminded me that I was more than that to him. I told him that I didn’t feel that way when he knew that I was upset about Torri and said to him, “You needed to make a choice between me or her and the choice at the time was Nat.” I could see that I upset him with that comment. Myth thought that I had meant that he was cheating and told me, “I don’t cheat.”

I told him that I never said that he was cheating but it just felt like when we were talking and his phone beeped, that all of a sudden Nat’s problems became more important then mine. I continued to say that I felt like number two when it comes to Nat.

I heard him sigh and say, “Damn, I’m an idiot. Sometimes I don’t think before I do things.” He then looked right at me and said, “That’s bull (talking about me feeling like number two). I love you can’t you see that?”

I think my mouth was still catching flies when once again I needed to pause and replay the words he just said in my head. I looked at him and said, “You what?” I needed to make sure I heard him correctly this time...

Myth whispered in my ear, “I…love…you.”
I closed my eyes after I heard the words and said, “Are you saying that out of guilt?”
He then added a touch of anger, “Don’t ever question that.”
I opened my eyes and looked into his, “You really mean it.”
Myth softened his voice again and replied, “Yes Anja I really do. I don’t know when it happened but it did.”
I wrapped my arms around him and my eyes begin to water. We both forgot about his injury and held each other tight and I told him with confidence that I loved him too. He kissed me and I could feel my butterflies take flight...

Myth asked why the tears. I told him I was happy.

He then suggested that we leave Lulu’s so that we could talk about my day. I watched as he pulled out his cell phone and turned it off. Myth said, “Let’s go to the apartment”, then he paused, “Let’s go to our home.”

We walked home and I locked the door behind us. Myth turned to me with a smile on his face and warmly said, “Welcome home peach” before we made our way to the bedroom…

I closed my journal and held it tight to my chest and smiled…

* I have always used this term as a joke instead of saying confused