May 21...

I woke up and looked around the room. It’s pitch black. I have no idea what time it is.
I can hear Myth sleeping beside me and I try curling up into a tighter ball in the bed, hugging my pillow and pulling the sheets closer to my chin.
My throat is sore…my body is sore…I’m scared and I just want to cry.
I toss and turn a bit hoping that I don’t wake Myth up.
It’s not working and I still can’t sleep…
Too many thoughts and images in my head…
I start thinking my view of our new home has changed and I’m wondering if it was a good thing moving after all.
I close my eyes and remember meeting our downstairs neighbour and let the tears stream down my face in silence.
I crawl out of bed and grab my journal and head to the other room and curl up with a blanket and begin to write to see if that will help me sleep…

April 11, 2009

Before heading to work I sent a text to Roan asking to meet with him again. I want to tell him myself the events that occurred from the previous day.
Ram and Jess are at the bar when I received my reply from Roan telling me to meet him at the wharf. I left without saying a word.

I arrive at the wharf to see Roan and Hitomi standing there. It didn’t matter to me she was there as Myth trusts her.
I got right to the point and told him I was looking for help. Again Roan warned me to stay away from Myth. It’s starting to sound like a broken record and I began to think I was just wasting my time even thinking about asking him.
I told Roan about the threat Nat made to me, putting a bullet in my back. It didn’t seem to faze him. I said I was sorry to have bothered him, but was glad that I told the truth when asking for help and didn’t lie like I could have.
Roan then asked if Myth had done all of these things to me ~ the cutting and burning with an iron ~ would I see him in a different light? Roan said that I have is blind love and Myth is leading me with an invisible leash. Once again pointing out he will not help me unless I get away from Myth...
I told Roan that our relationship wasn’t like that and added that if RM had really wanted me, he would have grabbed me the same time he took Myth. I was an easy target that day. I spiked the rum and he still didn’t take me.
Roan had no idea that Myth was missing and thought he was still in...

My eyes began to get heavy and the pen ran off the paper…

I woke with a jolt. There is someone outside the door. At least I think there is? I work at calming myself down by taking some deep breaths and then pick up my pen and read where I left off. I am awake; I should finish my entry.

Roan had no idea that Myth was missing and thought he was still in hiding.

Later that night I arrive at Lulu’s and see Lucy and Cleo sitting at the bar. Within seconds, Dura is at my side whispering in my ear, “They are coming for you.”
I looked around and asked, “Who?” She told me, “Damion, Nat, Jess and Isabo. They were at the motel. I called Katey but she didn’t answer.”
I heard someone ask for a beer unopened and see Nat was behind the voice.
Dura leans in again and whispers, “They’re here for you.”
I remember feeling my heart start racing and I didn’t know what to do.
Dura offered to serve Nat. I reached for my phone and sent a text to Roan telling him who was after me and where I was.
Nat brushed Dura aside and asked me again for the beer unopened, she added, “Hate to think it was drugged.”
Damion and Lynx showed up followed by Isa. I stood behind the bar just watching.
I saw Damion wink at Lynx and then he walked behind the bar and grabbed my arm. I told him to let go of me and then I felt prick in my arm and I passed out...
At the time, I didn’t know that he did that right in front of Lucy and Cleo ~ two cops.

I woke up to Cleo putting smelling salts under my nose. I sat down at the desk in the back when Isa approached me. She asked if I was okay and I told her I think so. I felt bad for not being at the bar and stood up to ask if she needed a drink. Isa told me to sit down and offered to get me a cold towel and I thanked her. I thought that was kind of her until she shot me with her taser.

I woke up to someone pinching my nipple and discovered my hands were in cuffs and a ball gag in my mouth. Isa and Lynx were standing above me. The women were talking about someone hanging upside down gasping for air. I was hoping they weren’t talking about Myth but I knew they were when Lynx said, “Time to visit Myth. I’ll call RM’s driver and have him come and get us.” Isa then blindfolded me before we left...

I was shoved to the floor and heard Lynx say, “Look what we brought you!” and pulled my blindfold off...
Just as I was about to look at my surroundings, Jess yanked me by the hair...that’s when I saw Myth hanging upside down from the ceiling swaying to and fro. It took everything in me not to react.
He was shocked to see Isa and myself then Jess then kicked him in the chest.
Lynx wanted to gag Myth as well, but Isa had a different plan when she pulled a whip out of her courier bag she set on the floor. Isa said that she wanted to hear him scream and aimed the whip at the back of his upper thighs.
Myth pleaded with them to let me go and said he forced me into the situation.
Lynx grabbed my hair again and tangled her fingers in it and pulled them out roughly.
Isa then trailed the whip in front of me and turned quickly and hit Myth again.
I squeezed my eyes shut at the sound of the crack.
Jess asked Lynx if she had a knife and Lynx nodded and set it on the floor.
Isa set down the whip and started to pull more things out of her bag, a tin of mints, an enormous dildo, a gun rug and a taser.
I watched as she opened her gun rug and pulled out her gun.
Jess yanked me by the hair again and told me to stand. Jess’s cell phone started to ring and she asked Lynx to answer it for her.
I was watching Lynx when I heard Isa voice says, “Drop the phone.” I turned to look at her and saw she had the gun aimed at Jess’s head.
Isa told Jess to untie me and let Myth down and threatened to blow her head off if she didn't. Isa cocked the hammer and repeated her orders.
Myth was pleased to see Isa switch her roll and commented how he knew she couldn’t have been involved with Jess and Lynx.
Jess slowly moved over and let Myth fall to the floor with a thud.

Isa told Lynx to drop the phone and knife. I think I missed the part when Lynx got the knife, but it didn’t matter when Isa fired the gun at Lynx hitting her in the thigh.
I raced over to Myth’s side.
Isa pointed the gun at Jess again and told her to untie Myth. She said she couldn’t. Isa called me over to her and unlocked my cuffs. I quickly took off the gag and ran back over to Myth and started to untie him.

Just as soon as I untied Myth, I felt something prick my neck and I passed out.

I’m not sure how long a was out, but I heard Myth’s voice ask me if I was okay, then someone dumped water on my head. I answered Myth and saw Isa beside me. She told me that we needed to go. I looked around and saw Damion cuffed to a cage and both Lynx and Jess on the floor.

We got out of the building as fast as we could and that’s when I discovered we where at SinQuisition.

Once outside, Myth asked Isa how she tricked Lynx and Jess. She explained that she used me as bait and pretended to hate Myth. Myth held me close and looked down the street and said that we needed to get out of the public eye.
I asked Isa how she knew about me and she said she didn’t until see saw the interest for me at the bar and thought she could use me for leverage for Myth.

As we made our way down the street, we ran into Katey. I stopped when I saw her. Myth started to panic telling us that we needed to go.
Katey told me that she got the message from Dura and asked if I was okay.
Myth and Katey exchanged glares.
Katey called me a fuckin' little slut and I saw Isa’s mouth drop.
Myth told us to go to Bo’s office and we could all talk there. He just wanted to get us off the street.
The Katey let the cat out of the bag and said, “I was about to call Mom and Dad.”
I saw Myth’s reaction and told her that I needed to go with them and pretended that I didn’t hear what she had just said.

I couldn’t believe she said that in front of Myth. We were going to keep our relationship a secret and she just blurted out like that…

As soon as we got into Bo’s office, I jumped into Myth’s arms not knowing how injured he was. He just smiled and held me tight reassuring me that we were okay. I jumped off as soon as I noticed he was hurt.

The doorknob started to turn and Myth, Isa and I froze. Then there was a knock. Myth pulled out Isa’s pistol and opened the door aiming it at whoever might be on the other side.
Katey was at door with her taser ready and aimed at Myth. Katey called him a bastard and I yelled at her to put her taser away. He ushered into the office and locked the door again. Isa asked Katey nicely to put her taser on the floor and to move away from it. Isa picked it up and tucked it away.
Myth asked her why she followed us and she didn’t answer. Katey was only concerned with me. My big sister was back.

Myth frowned at me when he asked when I was going to tell him Katey was my sister. I didn’t go into all the details at the time but stated that I wanted him to trust Katey first before I said anything.

Isa asked for the cliff notes version of the situation and told all of us, "Here's mine" she points at myth, "Friend" points at me, "Not friend yet.” points at Katey, "Not friend yet." Friends come first. Isa then grabbed Myth’s head and kissed him right in front of me. I wasn't that impressed...

The four of us started to talk to figure out the next move. Myth mentioned that he needed leverage on RM to make him back off.

I paused and started to chew on the end of the pen. I remember exactly what I had said after Myth made that comment and now I faced the challenge of either writing it down and God forbid if anyone where to find my journal I would have a lot of explaining to do ~ OR ~ not write it down.
I chose to leave out the part when I said we could use his bar as leverage. Myth at the time thought I might be onto something. I said that RM would expect us to go after a person of his and not a thing. Myth thought about asking a man named Ivan to do the job. I remember asking what Ivan did and Isa replied that he kills people. Myth frowned and said he didn’t want anyone dead but wanted his club wired and he wanted the controls for it. He thought by doing this RM would back off if his place were in jeopardy. That’s when Katey told us about RM’s partner, Kensey Allen. None of us knew who she was at the time, but when Katey told us that she was Amber’s Mistress the plans stopped right then and there. We didn’t want any part of it.
I knew I made the right choice not putting that information down on paper in light of what has happened to SinQ since...

I changed the subject and told Myth about the little fight Nat and I had the other day and that I had a chance to meet with Roan again. Myth wasn’t too impressed and said again that Nat needs help and fast.

Isa and Katey both left shortly after that leaving Myth and I alone. He asked me why I went to go and see Roan. I told him because I needed him to trust me and if I had gone in lying then what would be the point.

Myth’s cell phone started to buzz. It was a text from Isa saying she was in trouble at Lulu’s. We headed off to the bar. I punched in when I arrived and Myth waited by the backdoor.

Isa was there with Nat. I was also surprised to see Lynx and Damion. Isa and Nat were having some sort of fight and Nat had a beer bottle in her hand looking at Isa. Isa had her back turned as Nat approached her and I gave Isa a warning. As soon as Isa turned around, Nat hit her on the temple causing Isa’s forehead to start bleeding. Myth had entered the bar by then and Damion gave Nat warning that Myth was behind her. Myth was trying to stop the fight between the women.

The no one saw it coming when Dura entered that bar and shot Damion in the back...

I set the pen down, closed my journal and looked around the apartment again. The sun was just starting to rise out the window; I thought it might be best if I try sleeping again. I tiptoed back into the bedroom and crawled into bed and snuggled closer to Myth and closed my eyes...