May 21st...(day continue)

I think it was afternoon when I woke again…
Myth was gone for the day and I just sat in the bedroom thinking about getting out my journal again when someone started banging on my door yelling out my name.
It was Katey. I let her in and told her what happened.
Then I came up with the idea of getting a dog and made a mental note to talk to Myth about it.
After she left, I picked up my journal and began to write…

April 12, 2009

I must have been daydreaming at work because Atich spooked me when he called my name. He commented on my movements and lack of attention. I guess I was still thinking of the events from the night before…
Hitomi walked in. I asked her if we could talk. She agreed and took me back to her room at the motel. It made me a little more than uneasy being so close to RM like that, but I trusted Hitomi.

I wanted to talk to her about the meeting with Roan. I knew I had said some things I shouldn’t and wanted her no know that I meant no disrespect to him.
I told her that even though Myth and I we free, I heard that I was still in danger from RM…

I went back to work and don’t remember doing much but my job. Myth stopped by and I told him that I didn’t feel like working. We left and he took me back to his place so we could be alone.

When we arrived at his door, he handed me my very own key to his place. I think I can safely say, I moved in that day…

Myth carried me to the couch and held me in his arms. It was so nice to finally be alone with him and feel safe. He is such a gentle giant and we seem to fit in each other’s arms perfectly.
We just snuggled and talked. He asked why I came to Deadend ~ was it because of Katey or another reason. I told him both and began to tell my story.
We were both interrupted by our cell phones ~ Katey calling me and Isa calling him.
So much for our quiet time…

Katey called to tell me that Amber wanted to meet me and asked me to go to the agency. I told Myth where I was going and he said he’d show me where it was. I told him that I would call him when I was finished.

I stood outside the door and knocked. I know I was nervous, but knew Katey would be there with me.
Amber answered the door and I went inside.
I was introduced to her and Idggie.
Amber told me that Katey had filled her in on my little situation with RM. I tried to pay attention, but the woman that acted like a dog drew it away. She left me very confused, as I had never seen anything like that before.
Amber brought my attention back to her when she asked how badly did RM want me. I couldn’t answer the question because I really didn’t know. She also wanted me to tell her what has happened so far ~ was it money or did he just take a liking to me.
I told her money, but I had paid him what I owed already.
Amber laughed and made a comment that no one pays him off with his interest rate. I told Amber that he teased me about interest but never charged me for it.
Amber told me of her past with him and said that if I had owed him $5000, then my interest would be $10,000.
She then said that because I was Katey’s sister she would help me and handed me a roll of $1,000 bills equalling to $10,000 with instructions to pay RM.
Both Katey and I were shocked.
The next step was to discourage his interest in me, Amber told us. She said that by being one of her models would offer some degree of disinterest, as RM doesn’t wish to get Amber upset in anyway.
I was confused and Amber told me that Katey was a model. I had no idea.
Amber handed me her contract papers and I tried to read them to find out what she meant by model and ended up just asking her. The response was ‘Bondage and Erotic’.
I looked at Katey and she gave me a reassuring nod, so I turned to Amber and said I would do it.
In the back of my head however were the thoughts of what is Myth going to think…

Amber told me the best way to give RM the money and wanted me to let it slip that I was one of her models. I was to go to him with a male escort and handed me an ID badge that says that I am an official Bei Ai mi model so I would have proof of my employment. My phone started to beep and I excused myself to have a quick look at it.

Katey and I thanked Amber again and left the agency. Outside the door, I read the message again and sent a quick reply to Nat.

Katey asked who sent me a message and I didn’t tell her. It was something I needed to take care of myself and I didn’t want her to be involved as Nat agreed to meet me only if I was alone. I gave Katey specific intrusions not to follow me and I headed to the docks and completely forgot to send Myth a message…

I found Nat hiding around the corner of a building and approached her carefully. I asked why she felt guilty and why she sent her text.
She brushed my question off and asked how Myth was. I got my back up and we started to argue.
I had so much to say but just couldn’t get it out. We left on bad terms and bad went to worse when Nat turned the corner to leave and walked right into Katey.

Katey and I watched her leave and headed to the bar. Once we arrived at Lulu’s, I told her that I knew she would follow me. I was still so embarrassed that I couldn’t get a word in edgewise and lost my train of thought many times. I’ve never been much of a confrontational person…
Then I saw Myth and remembered that I forgot to call him.

Myth wasn’t pleased with me and told me he was worried sick when he went to Amber’s and didn’t find me there.
I told him that I went to meet with Nat…

All three of us went back to the apartment to talk so I could tell him about my meeting with Amber. Katey told him that I now worked for Amber as a model and I then told him about the $10,000.
Myth didn’t seem to have a problem with me being a model and just wanted me to be safe…

I set my journal down and adjusted the pillows on the bed, curled up in a ball and pulled the blankets up tight to my chin.
I was so tired…